| If everything could ever feel this real forever... |
[Mar. 17th, 2008|10:19 pm] |
I should definitely be reading "Bleak House" right now, that or writing the essay on "Araby" for my Writing Through Lit class...But I have too much on my mind that keeps me from focusing. (and Katie is studying for Biology outloud only 5 feet away)
I've been thinking a lot about my future at college. This time last week I was looking up info on transferring to UMW and feeling sort of down. Dad is being less than encouraging about school, and I've been trying not to let it get to me. He just doesn't get the fact that school is an investment...an expensive one...but it's just the next step in my life and I have to get through it. Money is becoming more of an issue, and he isn't shy about letting me know the strain it is putting on them. What irks me is the fact that they've always known how hard I worked in high school, and it's only makes sense that I would go to a private college with a good reputation. It's not like the cost of college is a big surprise, I just think they were mostly in denial about it. I have this fear that they'll tell me in the next year or so that I need to be the one paying my tuition...which is a stress I really don't need, but I know that hundreds of students have done it before me, so I will survive.
I can't decide whether to double major in English and History with a minor in Writing, or to major in English and minor in both History and Writing. It doesn't feel like much of a challenge to major in English alone, even if it is what I plan to use for a career in publishing/editing. But I don't know if I'm passionate enough about history to dedicate so much time and effort to it. I do enjoy English history, but the rest I could do without. Still, I might as well cram as much knowledge into my years here as possible...want to get my money's worth.
At a comment from my roommate, I got the idea in my head to apply for jobs as a camp counselor this summer instead of trying to work in retail or at an internship. As luck would have it, people with Video production experience are actually in demand at several different camps. I didn't actually think about this when I applied to Camp Lindenmere, but I'm glad I made a note of it anyway. Only three days after submitting my application, I got an e-mail from the program director and now have a phone interview scheduled for Thursday night. I'm really hoping this works out because it would get me the most money for only 7 weeks of work. It would also be a fun, new experience. I never went to overnight camp as a kid, and this camp would pay for my room and board...providing me with an excuse to NOT live at home for half of the summer...which I can't say I'm looking forward to.
I told my parents, and their reactions were disappointing to say the least. Mom wasn't very enthusiastic about my initiative or the camp's distance from my house. Dad really only heard my prospective salary and then tried to convince me to let my little brother use my car...which I don't see happening. His argument is that my brother is doing so *well now* that he doesn't want him to slow down...meaning that when he finishes school and earns his GED, he wants to take a job 20 minutes from home, with no license or car. So I'm admiring his new ambition, but wondering why I have to sacrifice the car I earned by NOT screwing around throughout high school, in order to make it easier for him. *sigh*
New Amsterdam is a wonderful show...mostly because the actor who plays John Amsterdam is charming and gorgeous. I swear to the tv gods that if FOX cancels it there will be hell to pay! *shakes fist*
Back to my summer plans, it will be weird to be home with my friends again...the same friends who have pretty much ignored me the majority of the year...way up here in little old PA. My fear is that they'll want to spend the summer drinking Schmirnoff in the basement and neglect to call me to hang out. I'll miss my college clump terribly. |
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| The future freaks me out... |
[Mar. 9th, 2008|09:33 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | $$, college, job, mass | ] |
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| | my dorm | ] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Blood Red Moon-- Libbie Schrader | ] |
I'm back at school after the first of our two spring breaks. My trip to MA was fun and disappointing at the same time. Kris and I have definitely grown closer and the trip helped us to bond. I think I broke more laws driving around with her for 5 days than in the rest of my adult life. There's not much to do in Oxford, entertainment-wise...so Kris like to drive around leaving creepy notes on the windshields of cars and talk WAY too loudly into the speaker at the McDonald's drive thru. It was pretty funny watching her drive on the MASS pike though.
Court on the other hand seems way more interested in herself and her boyfriend than maintaining old friendships. She ignored me the majority of my stay, and when we were together, I got the impression that she was killing time until she could go and be somewhere else with said boyfriend.
Also, apparently everyone I would have graduated with is either pregnant, engaged, and a slut in college somewhere...I DID say that there wasn't much to do up there.
Kris aided in the corruption of me and took me to get my nose pierced. The tattoo place we went to had really friendly and approachable guys (even if they were riddled with piercings) and it was a fun experience despite the large needle and pain.
I'd probably die happy if I never had to take a train anywhere ever again. Seriously. I spent 6 hours in a train station in Springfield and I think the people there thought I was lost or homeless. So boring.
Dad is making me panic about school and money, having embarrassing conversations with my roommate about how I didn't need to be at Gettysburg anymore since I wasn't majoring in science anymore. The man fails to grasp the idea of a liberal arts college...we've got a good reputation for MOST majors. But none the less he's been asking me about where I would transfer if I had to...and worrying me about tuition costs and such. Ugh.
My goal in the last couple weeks of school is to continue working my ass off...apply for summer jobs (I'll save the internship for next summer...this summer it's all about the $$), and my goal is to apply for one scholarship a week in my free time. This is the part I hate about college...why does it have to be so expensive?
Now, to finish reading about the plague... |
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| Somewhere far away from here... |
[Feb. 27th, 2008|11:33 pm] |
*rubs hands together*
After nearly a year of ignoring my poor lj, I think it's time get blogging again.
What to say? What to say? Second semester of freshmen year in college is almost exactly like the last semester of senior year. I'm not nearly as involved as I should be...oh well, there's always next year. I like to volunteer, i really do, but sometimes I just need to be lazy.
I spend my Wednesday nights copy editing at the Burgian with Margaux. We're contemplating redecorating the copy corner...perhaps get some pillows for the copy couch. Spruce the place up a bit.
I've gotten seriously addicted to Facebook. I could spend hours using the Bumper Sticker application. So much worse than myspace ever was.
I watched the Daily Show tonight because one of the history professors from Gettysburg was on their promoting his book about the Lincoln and Douglas debates. It was pretty snooze-worthy, and I really only tuned in to hear the reference to GBurg...who says I have no school pride?
I visiting Kris and Courtney in MA this weekend (for my first Spring Break...why the school has two breaks in March I don't understand). The other members of the clump (4/6) are going to Disney World and Katie is visiting her sister in France. I'm pretty freaking excited to see my old friends again. It's been three years since I last saw Courtney...longer for Kristen. The latter has all the plans to corrupt me while I'm there...cramming 18 years worth of debauchery into a five day visit should be...interesting. Hopefully I go through with the tattoo plan...and not chicken out at the last minute...b/c goddammit I will be a badass!
I really shouldn't be allowed to use the internet b/c clearly I'M that idiot girl who gets kidnapped b/c she puts WAY too much personal info on the internet. Seriously, I don't know why I'm such a dumbass. I've been having these interesting AIM conversations with a guy from Pakistan over the past week. Apparently he found me through the Class of 2011 facebook group and my s/n was on there for any rando to contact me. SO he was trying to get in touch with current students in order to get a grasp on his chances at getting admitted next fall. He's actually pretty nice, and he knows WAY more about American politics than I do..which makes me feel like an "ignorant slut" (to quote Michael Scott). Eppers says that he's only talking to me because he wants to marry me and gain citizenship. "He's only using you for citizenship!" She's a freak.
The writer's strike is over...which is awesome...because there are only two more finished episodes of Lost and I have no idea what the fuck is going on! So confused. And I really miss the Office.
I seriously need to get together a resume and apply for some internships or I will die of boredom this summer. Ass, get it into gear!
Swallows or cherry blossoms? it's such a dilema! |
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| I'm back.... |
[Mar. 3rd, 2007|10:22 pm] |
Holy Crap it's been a long time!
Can't say that I've been uber busy but I have had a lot of things on my mind. Got into college and now I'm just coasting along and waiting for the year to end...
I'm so excited for next year (the Fall)...I want to turn 18 and vote...I also want to get a tattoo and get to Gettysburg....I want to go study in England for as long as they'll let me...
But I've stumbled across a couple new fandoms to occupy my free time...namely Dr. WHo and the amazingly wonderful LOST...
I am such a fangirl for LOST now....and I can't decide who I like better...Jack/Kate or Sawyer/Kate...decisions decisions...If I could really meet hot guys when my plane crashes on a mysterious island, I would have gotten stranded years ago...
Oh well, either way it distracts me from the sometimes tedious and not-so-pleasant aspects of my life...
Good to be back. |
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| Calling all Writers |
[Feb. 9th, 2007|03:53 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | beta, help, my novel | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  determined | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Motion City Soundtrack- Resolution | ] |
Wow, long time, no lj-ing. I didn't think I'd be gone for so long.
But I have a question for writers of fanfic and original fiction. Does anyone know where I can find someone to beta a story I'm in the process of writing? It's not any kind of fanfic, and I'm not even sure what genre it would be considered. I'd like to turn it into a novel, but I need some constructive criticism...Should I join an online group? a website for writers? any help in the right direction is greatly appreciated!
Sarah |
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| Photoshop help |
[Feb. 15th, 2006|06:29 pm] |
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| |  busy | ] |
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| | counting crows- colorblind | ] |
GAH! will someone...anyone...please tell me how I can import text that I download from places like dafont and use it in Photoshop 7?!? |
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| Bored again! |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|12:19 am] |
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| | I love the 90's talking about BTVS...hahah Buffy vs. Blade! | ] |
i wanted to experiment with manipulations...so this is one of my better attempts! here it is: ( come see the pretties! ) What do ya think? |
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| Voila icons! |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|04:51 pm] |
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| |  artistic | ] |
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| | Snow Patrol- Spitting games | ] |
No school again today..sooo I made icons! and revamped some older ones!
A lot of Moulin Rouge, Some random Beauty and the Beast/ Harry Potter, Spuffy, and Fresley ones too!!
Preview:
  
( in no particular order... ) |
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| This lj is Friends Only |
[Jan. 4th, 2005|05:09 pm] |
Friend's Only banner and matching header are made by the lovely ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) organza. Thanks so much. Lyrics from the Natalie Merchant song "My Skin". |
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